My Diminutive Paradise

  A war is raging . Echoes of shrieking from a creature of madness . Running berserk and smashing everything around . It pays no heed to the voices of redemption . Its is trying to rip itself open to release the frustration . A war is raging , in my mind . Can no longer take it , can no longer control it . The walls of my mind keep breaking down . The creature’s prison shattered to pieces .It keeps biting and kicking , slamming against everything . It had drowned out the day , making its miserable . Music , movies and nothing couldn’t stand in its way . The exiled creature is back to claim its price after years . A day long torment wont be enough , it asks for more . A small sign of weakness , disappointment and hurt , the sense of isolation and abandonment has eased the walls of its prison . I can feel the earth tremble below my eyes or is it me trembling . Its growling is making me mad . I have to imprison it or sink it down , I cannot let it loose or it will waste everythi...

  No one knows anyone completely , we choose what to show and what to see . There are always some exceptions to this like our Mom , Dad or a very close friend who you have given the keys to open many doors of our life . I cannot comment on how the Gen-Pop is , but I do no trust anyone with those keys that easily . There are always tests before you get to trust someone completely and let them in and there is always someone , who just directly gets into your heart , you cant explain why but that always happens . There are always some people in everyone’s life who just earn our trust in a very short time and become our world outside family , sometimes as everything . In my case , it’s a friend . Many walls around me ,just turned to dust for him . This level of trust and the “no-limit” relationship is new to me . I had serious doubts , I just couldn’t believe myself that I smashed and changed so many for him . My friend sensed my perturbations . No explanations could convince me or ...

The Caste system in India has long prevailed and has been a dirty devil to play with . The politicians however seem to have signed a pact with the devil and use it as a perfect tool to muster up votes during elections . Too many movies were taken and far too many poets and activists tried their hand in vanquishing the devil , but they were mere nudges , not the actual PUSH our people require . How to eliminate one is a whole different story altogether .. what I was more concerned about was where it all began . There were so many reasons , ideologies & theories , but most had their roots in Hindu mythology . Varnas , which were introduced to sort and assign duties to people and result in efficient socio-management , finally resulted as a never-ending entangled coil of web . Lord Ram who was considered to be a supreme and a most efficient ruler , has been a great supporter of one . The Shambuka incident clearly suggests that he did support the caste system by slaying a Sudra who ...

  It is really fascinating how even small things can remind us of something big and how they serve as clues to bring together the scattered pieces of a puzzle . I realized this very recently . The bus stop , a broken pen , an old bus ticket that somehow remained in your wallet , a song , anything can be the key to your memories . I just started to ponder upon this , when I very accidentally came through an album of Enya . This was the album that encapsulates my training memories –the very beginning phase of work . New friends , especially THE one , the rain , the long walks to bus stop , the treats in the food court the very first salary , the happiness of being financially independent , the tests ( God!! I wish I forget those ) .  It is just enchanting how a song can remind me of so many things and letting those memories become alive again , as if watching a video .   The way our mind works – Splendid !!!

  Truth be told , I just couldn't get around the fact that my friend lost the very book , I was asking of him , since long . If you are regular visitor and if by chance you have noticed , I have been rambling and going on and on about a novel – a trilogy actually . It was almost a year gap between the first and the second book . My interest in the book intrigued  many people I know , especially the one who gifted me the others . Seeing me , absorbed in the book , made them more curious and they wanted to give the series a try . And so I began , the search for the long lost book , possibly with the person who rendered it to me . I was soon confirmed of its presence with him . Then came the difficult part . People kept asking for the book , my friend kept forgetting to bring it to me .It just seemed like pressure to accomplish delivering the book . Now yesterday , the day me and my friend usually meet , I kept reminding him via texts and finally by noon , a text came , “Sorry ...

http://rharikumar.blogspot.in/2011/09/i-wish-to-be-gifted.html My wish finally came true .I was finally gifted , at an unexpected time from an unexpected person . A Novel of the Gifted – gifted for me !!!! I have been going on and on about a particular book , for a long time and was trying desperately hard to find the rest two books in the series but I wasn't ready to spend more than 500 on one book , so I kept searching the net for months but in vain .All that I could find was more than 700 INR – Nope !! Definitely not that much for a book . As usual , I let this news , my longing and the unending search , slip into the ears of a few people in my team , hoping they would be able to find them (nearly impossibly , but still worth trying) , in the libraries they visit . The first book The Begotten , came to me via a friend , so why not expect and hope that their libraries would miraculously end my search . Now that’s said and done . I was trying to fish it out from the ne...

*If any of you have any idea of making fun , I suggest you not to go ahead . Please close this page and help yourselves . I don’t like to joked at when im talking something serious .   There are only a few people who you argue with and never care about the effects , yell or show your anger and be an open book and blindly depend on ,for comfort . I have found yet another special person in my very short list of such people . I have mentioned and wrote about few in my blog before , now its time for the new friend to go down in my history . With this person , I have realized that it doesn’t take time to find a true friend in someone . The friendship given to me , made me realize , at times , if I deserve all these . Because , I cant even think of doing such things . For a person who doesn’t fail to make you understand that you are very important , you can push aside anything and do anything to give at least a part of his care and friendship , back . Each phase of my life has o...

I decided that I am not going by office bus today and would take MTC bus , for I didn’t get time to meet any of my friends . Not being able able to meet them , when they were on leave is a different story , but today , they were there waiting for me and I just couldn’t miss spending time with them . Rushed to our meeting spot , and found all of them greeting me with their usual friendly smile .(Nikitha , Anand , Siva , Mohana , Aishwarya) After a few minutes of chit-chat there , we started to leave , as it would take a long time for me to reach home . All these people stay at almost 1/2 hour distance from our office .  At the very sight of the Shuttle bus (bus service from the office to the bus stop outside the campus ) , we all began to ran , as it is usually hard to get seat in a shuttle bus at this time . We rushed and hopped on to the bus , to find that there was no driver there . All those running was for nothing . Everyone let out a huge sigh and we occupied the last ro...

  I opened up my writer tool and just sat there confused on what to write , what to hold and how to hide in the words . The blinking lights on my modem caught my attention and soon the two lights became six . I was lost in thoughts . The lights soon transformed into many fireflies and rose above . I was sure that I was dreaming , but I just couldn’t snap out of it . The more I tried to get out , more brighter they became and started floating right in front of my face . Each bubble of light , joined together and appeared to transform into what seemed like a human figure , bright , glowing and unrecognizable . It was at the same time , a shadow rose behind the light , smiling at me . Dark enough to subdue the brightness . Both lifted their hands towards me , waiting for me to take it . I hesitated . The brightness soon began to flicker . I began to think that the luminous figure is not so real after all , for behind all this glow there was darkness , a huge one . I started to wonde...

Yesterday : The team was abuzz and running around busy and serious , making preparations for the client visit tomorrow . Right from setting up sign boards & posters to cleaning up our desks , almost everyone was busy doing something . Around 7 p.m , a new mail notification with a critical symbol , started blinking at us from our monitors . It was from our project manager , asking us to come by 9 am tomorrow ( which is almost an hour earlier than our usual time ) , well - groomed . Today : Today we all gathered in the office by around 8 - which is actually the in-time for the first bus , the next one is only at 10 , so we could afford to miss the first one . After breakfast and some usual chit-chat to ward off the sleep still clinging on to our eyes , we started our work and simultaneously awaiting the client visit to our workplace . The clock was ticking and there was no sign any whites , even after lunch . Anxious and irritated we sat still waiting wondering , " Even...

  Temptation is  quite a hard thing to resist . It was right there in front of my eyes , settled beautifully under a tree . In the only place , that could offer a cold breeze among the others where sun reigns and takes fun in making us sweat and run towards shade , it stays , adding an eerie feel to the spot . I wanted to go and touch it , may be play with it , but was worried about what people might think or say . It is certainly not the thing a grown-up like me would do . So with all my might , I tried to push the thought to the back of my head . It was hard , to try not to do something that you desperately wanted to do and that too , everyday - Blimey !!! Its hard . But today , I couldn't . I decided that I shall do it today , strolled towards it slowing looking around making note of what all is happening around me , and if there would be any potential stalkers or if anyone would actually be interested in what I'm gonna do .  The spot is at the left corner of a we...

Dear me !! This modern Mr.Holmes is just fascinating . I have always been a fan of the crime and mystery solving lot . But this one, is way beyond everything . I took a special interest in TV series when all the Jick , Jack and Jones of my college talked about FRIENDS , non-stop . Their long talks about the series drove me nuts and yes i wanted to bring something against it . After a humongous  task of reading the reviews and finding the download links , i chose to start Fringe . I was sure it had the juice and yes it did . And very soon , I created a fringe sensation in my college . Ya ! You could say im proud of it , heads high - if you would prefer to call it that way . After meeting the notorious Mr.Castle and the splendid Mentalist - Mr.Jane and his friend Red John (very interesting chap ), i had the opportunity to meet Mr.Holmes . I was initially alarmed of the duration , which is 1.30 for an episode , but it seriously is worth it . Ok . This Sherlock initially...

  A sense of urgency suddenly flooded me , it usually does this time of the evening . I looked at my watch . It was 6.30 . "6.30 !!!???!! Already !! " , I gasped . I still had so much to do , so much to finish . But still  I can't hold my feet in the office after 7 , 7.10 maximum . So I rushed up , finished as much as I could and rushed out of my desk , texting  : " wru ? I'll be out in a min " . I was near the door , when I mobile beeped with the txt msg , " Im out . you come out soon . " When I opened the door , there he was - Siva , sitting on the stone bench smiling warmly as always  . After an apology for making him wait , we dashed down the subway to the parking area , which is the easiest access for all the buildings in the complex . "Gunda !!! Née overa vela seiyura da ippo .. Suthama seri illa " , complained shiva . This was an usual statement . After a blunt reply as always , our conversation moved on to other topics ,...

In the land of seven realms , it's a tradition that all the prince and princess , the heir to the royal throne or of the royal blood get trained together in the land of Ivanah . Ivanah , is a land that belongs to no realm . It has kept its peace undamaged for a thousand years even at times of war among the kings . It's a safe haven for all . It is for that reason and the belief that when all the noble blood get to learn things together it would result in a fruitful political endeavor and to know and understand , other potentially powerful heirs of the realms which might prove beneficial in times of distress to manipulate one's move . This time , the end of the white season , the training begins in all the categories like magic , swordplay , politics and battle strategy . The land of Ivanah was all set to receive the royal line of all the realms . No cadet from one realm is allowed to see the other until the beginning ceremony . It was The day , the day of beginning . ...

  It's been quite a long time since I have posted something in my blog . I seriously miss blogging these days . My work is consuming most of my time , not that I'm totally busy , but still , the travel and stuff leaves me with very less time for blogging . At times , when something noteworthy happens I decide to post them in my blog , but as time goes , I gradually lose interest in that and that special moment takes a walk through the forgot lane . Enough with the laments !!!! Coming to how things that  have been going , I'm enjoying my work . New friends , new stuffs everyday . Somehow or the other , u keep growing and changing everyday . Everyday , every person u meet gives you something to take . It's quite amusing when u put in some thought towards it. College made me less sensitive to stuff that doesn't require any attention and very few people in college helped me with chiseling out the negatives off me . While , work has made me to be open for all thoughts...

  Hair rippling and waving  hysterically , my whole body damp and cold , I stand on a slippery rock with no one around . Waves hit the rock and splashes above , trying to reach me , leaving only a few droplets over my feet ,spraying . The salty air circles me making the dampness get onto me sending a bond deep chill . Yet I stand there motionless with my mind trying to clear away the fog surrounding it . I feel tied but my hands are free . I raise them and begin to stroke the breeze around me , trying to break open the veil of air that has imprisoned me . A ray of sunlight ripping open the dark clouds fell on my face , the only ray of light in the dark watery prison around me . The warmth of the sun loosens the cold , clutching my face allowing me to feel the blood running in the veins . A sudden realization that a boat dropped me here , makes me turn back and I find nothing but water splashing around as if dancing in fun . The boat came for me when I was in the shore , and ...

  I was literally shocked when the bus conductor told me that 30 rs ticket which can be used for a day’s travel is 50 rs now . Just to clarify , I asked him again , with a slight tinge of hope that my ears got them wrong , but I was proved there was nothing wrong with my hearing .  Looking at my deranged expression , the conductor offered some realization . He took out a small piece of paper from his pocket and showed me the changes in the ticket fare for each stop . He also claimed that he took them as notes as he couldn’t remember when his superiors informed him of the change . He finally finished with a big sigh indicating that he has been doing this for a lot of people since morning and he is bored . Soon , other commuters started sharing their shock and expressed their distaste with the government’s decision . One man grunted that good things that are promised by the government haven’t reached the common man’s hands yet , but things like price hikes take only a day to g...

   Life has been moving - crazily fast  . A lot has happened since i started work . A lot has been said and lot has been done , but nothing related to work and my company is paying me for that , as we - friends meet up everyday in office , sit around a table , chat , tease , argue , eat , do all the stuffs again and leave . Hundreds of new trainees flock around in the cafeteria once in every two weeks and the spot is no different from Ranganathan Street , T.Nagar . All that I could think of , when seeing this is ,  "Dei ...yennada nadakudhu inga ...thiruvizha kootam maari iruke da ". A few boys get energized on witnessing such a colorful crowd and very soon what appeared to be once a random mix of boys and girls in groups , soon became pairs , with each pair sitting in a table drinking a coffee for an hour or eating the Spl Jamun Ice-cream  ( "yeppadi than ada avalo slow a saapiduraangalo" ) . In a group that is chatting continuously for an hour , suddenly ev...

  I have no idea why I chose this title . I have been waiting to see this scorpion friend of mine , I used to challenge with in some funny games and travelled together with during college days . Saravanan aka miki  , my college mate who also happens to be my colleague and a best friend of mine and the guy who wished to hang out somewhere probably a movie and the guy who booked tickets for The 3 musketeers movie and …..Phoo ! enough with the ands . So , I just called up susee and he was ready to hit it but initially he didn’t believe it , as we rarely spoke in the last 4 months . So plan confirmed . When I boarded the bus yesterday  afternoon , a text message with a very friendly  word reached my mobile , which is ..”Dei Donkey , Im in your bus da ..come front ” .   I was surprised , people don’t call me donkey , not that they don’t call me by names , they just don’t call me donkey . So there he was , few seats in front of me . We started chatting with the ...

      The mist in front moved away , and I walked over the grass field still damp with the dew settled in , making my bare feet wet and muddy . A single tree , caught my attention with its shiny red fruits glowing in the early morning sun . The field was empty except for that tree . I strolled towards it , taking in the beauty of each moment . Closer I went and realized it was an apple tree . I stood there thinking if it was the tree from the book I read recently . Hoping it will move away when I touched , as it did in the book , I went near it and placed my hands on its shiny smooth barks , gently . It didn’t move . Glad with the thought it was not the one from the book I reached for an apple .  To my surprise the apple dropped down from the branch and flew away . “How extraordinary!”,I thought . Soon , the apple came back towards me and started circling me . Astonished and happy , I stood there smiling , wondering what it is going to do . The other apples fol...