My Diminutive Paradise

Life is an adventure . As soon as I held her hands , i knew that an adventure was going to begin - a journey filled with emotions , sweet simple things , very scarce cat fights and lots of love . Every day begins and ends with her smile and i thank God for making my life a heaven on earth . From being someone with lack of emotions to a being a silly fellow ,  playing , laughing at my own jokes , irritating her with pranks , singing loud horribly , performing the futterwacken and a eccentric being who thinks changing voices and talking like a kid is cute , i have come full circle and  need i say i am happy now !! She was crazy in a lot of ways and who knew i would take crazy to a whole new level . Thanks to her , we are now a happy lunatic couple who has gone completely bonkers . The most wonderful thing about being us is that , we are the only one like us :) In a very casual moment one day , she asked , “Do you love me mamma ?” “Oh yes...

It was a cold and breezy night in London . The trees , the buildings and everything around stood out , in the yellow hue of the street lights . We were going back home after a movie and dinner . It was then , she asked me why i love her so much and me being a "pretend-frigid" guy most of the time , i replied to her question with a shrug and a smile . She insisted for an answer and when i opened up to tell her why i adore her so much , she kept staring into my eyes and started getting all teary . I asked her why she was getting this emotional and she pointed at me and gazed into my eyes , only for me to realize that there were tears rolling down my cheeks . So much for the "frigid - emotionless" guy . She then smiled , wiping them off and rested her head on my shoulder , holding my hands tight and dozed off smiling . There were no more words , no more cold night , as our hearts did the talking and kept us warm . Looking at her , a smile blossomed on my face ...

Nothing gives happiness to a writer than the feeling of holding his favourite pen and the words that are magically mustered at his will . The pen shares an intimate bond with him that nothing else can replace . The bond together , transpires a story so beautiful that it takes the breath away from its readers . Thats how a story is born and is relived a million times in the unfettered imagination of its readers and thereby gives life to its characters . One such pen of a notorious and a secretive writer nudged the characters to write a story of their own on their own, when exchanged with the right person . And thus a story began with the exchange of a pen . The mighty magical pen started to give life to the words and with life , came love . A Love that brought the moon and the sun together , and sealed the fire and water in a magical sphere for eternity . A love that sealed me with her for life . When we first met , she used to give me a look . I thought she either found me ...

Staring at my phone I sit on a stone bench, with the music of the birds,  the roar of the fountain, the buzzing sound of the bees around these beautiful flowers keeping me company.  The breeze strokes my face gently,  making me forget everything around me and whispers in my ears that happiness is all around. Yes it is,  but for me it seems quite far away... Way beyond those roaring fountains and the concrete building. This place soothes me,  the place away from faces,  words,  emotions and responsibilities but I can't stay here.  Although I love this little paradise I found, I still have to get back to my world... The world full of keyboards and the usualities.  This patch of green that's  something close to wilderness and the solitude is making me sit for hours and I have been.. But I need to move out.. Here in this paradise of mine,  there is no room for anger,  disappointments,  failure,  or any kind of emotions....

Yes I said it and I'm sure most of you will agree too. Over the past few years we all have been running towards an ever changing and a complicated route to an invisible target,  influenced either by the society or our decision to be like everybody else around.  Technology has made us more efficient and supremely lazy.  This technology thats ruling all our lives demands everything back in return. Years back,  expertise in one skill would have made life easier.  Our dads and grand dads would have lived happily with being an expert in one area.  But now,  time is running fast and specialisation in one area is bound to make you obsolete,  not in the long run,  but in just few years or may be less than that. Being in I.T field,  expert or trying to be an expert in just one area or tech,  will give you a mighty chance for the coveted pink slip or a way to total oblivion. I understand that there are a lot of no-expert guys around for y...

"You get what you deserve" Thats an old saying , i dont belive in . One that survived the years , because it gives hope . Hope - An excuse for lack of action , for those who are weak to fight for it and those without desire . I am not you . I do not live everyday of my life struggling to just live and claw the way for a middle class that no longer exists . I have money , enough to be happy but to stay happy i need respect not the one that comes towards an act of kindness but the one that demands it - Fear . Because people forget good things , its the bad that stands for time , passed on to generations , to make them believe that there is always something or someone who can get to them and make them suffer . Its this feeling that drives humanity . Its the fear , that makes the whole world docile , except for few men with true vision . So Yes , i am not from the world you see , not from yours , but from the one hidden in its shadows . Shadows of your indifferenc...

Of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world, she walks into mine. Now!!  that's the line to start describing this experience with.  I'm not an avid follower of malayalam movies but the good ones doesn't get to evade me so easily. The first look poster,  DQ - Nithya,  and with the way the trailer leaves an impression with its wonderful music and an intriguing cinematography,  this movie went into my must-watch list instantly. Today I had the pleasure of experiencing,  as I would like to call it,  Jenuse mohamed's 100 days of love. What makes this movie special apart from the technical finesse is the great performance. The best thing about the protagonist, DQ is his subtlety and he fits perfectly into the role of BKN. You don't get to see a single scene where he either over-performs or under-performs. Nithya is gorgeous (if that word can actually define just the being she is) . "Her smile was magic" ,  exclaims BKN when d...

Nightingale Road !!! I stand on the road all paved and narrow . Tranquility and beauty was all i could sense . The sublime glow of a chimney lamp from a small cottage across the road , and the green blanket around it added to the beauty of that moment . I now have to find my way to the place and a steep curved walkway up the road will take me there . It was a place of antique beauty , will thick shrubs around , blue bells popping out from few of the them and the smoke rising up to the sky from the chimneys of classic old brick houses . But without the sun, this would prove to be a dark and brooding place we read about in novels , perfect for a crime  , witchcraft / wizardry . To the right lies Petersham , a beautiful medieval style hotel , tall and wide with a wonderful view to the other side .  I could see cars parked around and the hustle of people leaving in small groups for a walk . Up the narrow lane and a few minute walk to the right , i have re...

For me , a phone is something that is very difficult to stay away from .  Looks and the build quality has been my top priority when it comes to choosing a phone . All the beefed up specs that's gloriously packed in a wonderfully attractive design is the key for any flagship . To satisfy me after a round of unhappy stints, i arrived at the Glorious Galaxy Note 3 , and i proudly say that i am completely satisfied . There are thousands of reviews and specs sheets out there . This is going to be the key important things that i find with the Note 3 . For Detailed Review – Click here Glorious Stuff : Splendid high pixel density , HD 5.5” screen . Decent design with a textured plastic (i basically hate samsung’s design ) which makes it look premium in all ways . The S Pen , much better than the previous version and is what that keeps other flagships far far away from this . Jedi tricks like, scrolling email and internet browser with your face movements . Wa...

Can you live without your current smartphone for a day or two ? The answer is definitely Yes but its very very difficult for most people like me . In an era where smartphone has become an integral part of many lives , losing it or not being with it is not an easy task . So , what do i do with my smartphone ? Most important thing are my contacts .  I keep in touch with as many as i could and maintain my circle of friends , share things , hardships , fun , photos , etc., Email Accounts , Social networks , Chat services , sometimes banking apps . Imporant documents either as a primary copy or for backup . Almost 16 Gig contents (music , photos , and videos) And more importantly , my smartphone has become an extended part of myself that i would always keep with me and never leave it alone .. I mean never . Mine was also a priced proud possesion . It was sony's first waterproof , scratch proof and SHATTER proof smartphone and had an awsome 12 MP camera . It soon became s...

Long has it been . The feeling of togetherness,fun and frolicking almost forgotten but never cleared away as they are memories of a good time that always linger around . Memories that remain to provide company when solitude begins to suffocate . The blistering cold wind rips the color and life off things around .It also leaves a storm swirling in your mind that brings flashes of memories that bares the emptiness in you that you no longer feel the difference between the bare branches of a tree and the lifeless journey for money and fame . Scrolling through the contacts in phone , remembering and listening the past thats bonded with each name and the beeps , takes away the forced reclusion and brings life closer. The fight against this wilderness would have been lost long ago and made confinement hold my fort if not for my phone . The heads bent down and the fingers clicking the hard plastic or the glowing glass screen , in trains and buses , in places around , reminds a...

I write and now I realize . The flow of words or emotions can never be reproduced . I was writing , the flow of words eased my unsettling mind ....a network glitch and all those hundreds of words vanished with no trace .  I sit again trying to recreate it and my words are hurdled , my thoughts running berserk and me ashamed and fragile with no control over my words or emotions .

  Writing ,  always felt comfortable . The flow of words from your mind to the screen has a kick to it . I am not a good writer but i like to write . My London diary is not peacockery , its nothing but a way to share the experiences of a Chennai Paiyann in London . This is actually my first long trip ever , out of Chennai . Amidst a lot of emotions , tears , smiles , surprises , excitement , fear , big and long byes , i left Chennai . Everything beyond that line was a first time experience - Flight , the view from up top (Chennai looked lovely) , air hostess , conversations with a stranger , it was all new . A cold breeze , welcomed me to London , making me shiver, forcing me to wear my jacket and ruined my challenge to handle the cold . Shivering , i walked across a lot of strange faces , through a bunch of formalities and finally to a face , i knew all too well  - My colleague . Its been a long time since , a...

Sometimes,  with the remains of the day we will feel pleasant and contended for no reason.  That time,  when every song you listen to is wonderful and everything you see is beautiful . Today,  is oddly that kind of day for me. A pleasant eccentricity!! With half a window open, I invite the wind and the world to show me its wonder. The bus was moving rather faster today, leaving more entry for the wind to play around. Streaks of hair from a girl sleeping in the front seat,  was dangling and trying to reach out from the corner of the seat . It brought a smile on my face. Smiling,  I stared outside to see the world - busy and colorful. Buildings with colorful lights ran behind me,  bikes and cars honking and moving,  all rushing to be at a place they want to be.  Every office building is releasing its set of lives into the road and sending them off, to their wife and children,  to their parents,  to their friends or to their solitud...

I think i started typin this sometime back , when i was in bus , on d way to office . This has been lying in my drafts for a long time . I dont wanna complete it now ... it was a broken day dream and shall remain as one . So just publishing it..... With the horns honking,  engines roaring and the tress moving , it is nothing but a typical week day . But I am left with a discomfort in my heart. My book,  remained deserted with no words to feed it and a fine coat of dust ruining its gloss . I sit up,  determined to revive it and sought for words from my mind,  but it was rather completely obstinate providing me with no words or clarity.  May be it was because of all the noise around. It was time to switch the view,  change the channel to a more comforting one.  I did  !!! and found myself drowning in a sea that's so unusually violent,  throwing and dangling me to corners... It was as if the waters were playing with me..... I cou...

  The trailer told us what the plot was . The reviews would have told you what the movie is . In my opinion , Kadal is not as expected , not even close . The first half has a few noticeable and well placed scenes which really gives off Mani’s aura but it fades and flickers in a predictable , dull and not so interesting second half . Bermes as pure evil is perfect and so is Father Sam but the growth of these characters is rather naive . The scene where Bermes tricks , Father Sam in a trap and the whole crowd losing their trust and bringing down a man of faith is nice . Expecting a perfect rise of that character after such a downfall , i was left disappointed as  Mani had just decided to let it be , just like that . On the performance front , everyone has done their best . Gautam Karthik has the stuff and has performed very naturally !! Thulasi Nair was actually a pain to the eyes !! Somehow i just couldn't see  beauty or innocence in her . The coming back of the m...

The movie began with deafening roars,  claps and whistles from the audience - not for the hero - but for Santhanam. This man is clearly the fav of the masses.  The movie is all about the emotional outbursts between Varun (Jeeva) and Nithya(Samantha) . They fight,  break up,  meet up after sometime and again fight - break up and there u go...  That's all the movie is about. It did look cute,  when it began and slowly it turned out to be totally annoying. The crowd became restless even before the interval and there were disaapointed voices from the audience like " Gautam ku enna da aachu?  " , " Machi ! Idu theatre la oru vaaram kooda thaangadhu polaye" , etc... I leave the rest to your assumption.  This movie is completely Samantha-centric and she is gorgeous at times and also the other way around . ["Kudutha kaasukku mattum nadima plz " - audience voice. ] Jeeva is just the usual romantic - dude!!  Nothing worth mentioning there.  ...

  A war is raging . Echoes of shrieking from a creature of madness . Running berserk and smashing everything around . It pays no heed to the voices of redemption . Its is trying to rip itself open to release the frustration . A war is raging , in my mind . Can no longer take it , can no longer control it . The walls of my mind keep breaking down . The creature’s prison shattered to pieces .It keeps biting and kicking , slamming against everything . It had drowned out the day , making its miserable . Music , movies and nothing couldn’t stand in its way . The exiled creature is back to claim its price after years . A day long torment wont be enough , it asks for more . A small sign of weakness , disappointment and hurt , the sense of isolation and abandonment has eased the walls of its prison . I can feel the earth tremble below my eyes or is it me trembling . Its growling is making me mad . I have to imprison it or sink it down , I cannot let it loose or it will waste everythi...